Sometimes I let my mind take over,
It brings me to beautiful words and works of wonder,
Where i find my way through this rumbling thunder.
Steady becomes my being,
and I find everything I need.
The uselessness of the world fades out
and I find something much more interesting on which to feed.
Nothing happens in an instant,
but in my mind, a turn is twisted in a quick second.
Many thoughts spring in
and I find them to be so intriguing that I pen them in.
Yet, they never come out how i see them.
Not as vividly at least.
I know that I am dark and light,
Judas and Priest.
But when I am alone,
I am just a small fracture in the earth
and that gives me great relief from the strife I was given at birth.
I am no narcissist,
at least I hope,
But the way that I am makes me happy.
That I am no twig,
nor am I stone.
I live the life I made in my mind,
and it satisfies me so that I feel no time.
Thus I take a right or a left,
a twist or a bend,
and I find myself in the place I had long since yearned to be.
With myself and with my God,
in my soul that lives on outside of me.
-Natalie Cait
that gray area 